Thursday, May 27, 2010

desert vacay

flew into phoenix yesterday and super glad to be back in the desert. bizarre, perhaps, but i so dig the high temperatures and warm nights. obsessed with warm nights. love them.

got a much needed in n out grilled cheese on the way from phx to tucson and spent the rest of the evening chilling and drinking wine with the p's. pretty lovely.

today i slept in, mums made me some oatmeal, i lounged by the pool, and then i drug the parents to tucson's only roller rink. what a dork! i'm really so geeked out on derby, it's ridiculous. i kinda thought the rink would be empty and i could do some falls and stuff for my parents, but it was chalk full of kids! so mostly i just treated the kids like an obstacle course and practiced weaving around a bunch of wobbly babies. good practice, actually. and the rink had a skate shop, so pops bought me some outdoor wheels and a wrench for tightening up my toe stops. woot! i started switching out my wheels tonight and i think i'll hit the oro valley streets tomorrow for my first try at skating out of doors. very excited.

also super excited for my girls to arrive on friday! this weekend is going to be lots of fun, i can tell already. even if we just lounge on the couch and drink mimosas for three days, i'll be stoked.

dying of sleepiness now, so i'm gonna hit the showers and hope i don't have bad dreams again tonight. every time i travel now, i spend the first few nights having terrifying dreams. i think my psyche misses the boy and the dog. which would be sweet if the dreams weren't so horrible.

until tomorrow then. XOX.

Monday, May 24, 2010

pancakes and roller derby

is pretty much all i've been up to lately. not sure what's up with the pancake cravings, but i've decided to just honor the belly and make pancakes.

made these pancakes which were delicious (only changes i made were using half whole wheat flour and half regular organic flour, using regular milk sted soy, and adding 2tsp vanilla + 1/2 tsp of coconut extract cuz i ran out of vanilla). i also made these uber healthy pancakes which were actually quite tasty tho a touch eggy for me.

and helped bench coach at the roller derby bout on saturday night which was a blast, natch. fingers crossed that i'll be skating in june! but i've got a lot of travel-vacay on the agenda, so if i don't get to skate until july, i'll just have to deal. i wish i could just get everybody i know to come to a bout with me! they're really SO FUN. everyone is yelling, girls are all ass-over-tea-kettle, there's beer and popcorn and unfinished wooden bleachers, fishnets, tough competition,'s all extremely entertaining and lively.

then i went to the afterparty at the knick where i had a few beers and chatted a bit. then home for pizza (i was staaaaaaaaaaaaarving!) and late night movie watchin.

tomorrow i head to arizona to hang with the parents and then have a mini friend reunion with my college girls. i am super excited for lounging, hiking, cocktails, dinner out, swimming, tennis, shopping, etc.

but now it's 2am and i need to finish packing. but that shit's easy. sleep tight, internet! i'll write when i get out west!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

just because

had a lovely dinner at bistro tonight -- a bottle of stag's leap (courtesy of bistro wine club -- woot! it was a merlot and i liked it regardless), a cup of artichoke-swiss soup, blackened grilled salmon, and a sticky toffee pudding (this dessert is SICK. if you are ever in lafayette, indiana and can eat wheat products, you must have this. caramelly squishy chewy warm goodness with a scoop of vanilla bean ice cream yessssssssssssssss).

now because i wanna go to sleep and i'm out of stuff to write, ima include my current running playlist. or rather, my current listen-to-before-derby playlist. sure it might look a little schizophrenic from the outside, but if you don't see how peaches and miley cyrus go together like pb and chocolate, that's your problem.

Win Baby Win Mix

Peaches - I’m the Kinda

She Wants Revenge - Tear You Apart

Tricky - Christiansands

Mos Def - Quiet Dog

DJ Khaled - All I Do is Win

Tom Waits - Hoist that Rag

Fugazi - Waiting Room

Joan Jett & the Blackhearts - Crimson and Clover

Cat Power - Lost Someone

Beirut - Nantes

Vampire Weekend - The Kids Don’t Stand a Chance

Gogol Bordello - Through the Roof ‘n’ Underground

Old 97s - Doreen

Lady Gaga - Bad Romance

Miley Cyrus - Party in the U.S.A.

Beyonce - Single Ladies

Kesha - Tik Tok

Le Tigre - Hot Topic

The Velvet Underground & Nico - I’ll Be Your Mirror

Cat Power - Breathless

Tom Waits - Little Drop of Poison

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

catching up

been pretty busy around here. submitted grades late monday night, so the semester is officially OVER. yes. very excited for summer.

i also finally got my skates today! and got to wear them to practice! it's amazing the difference they make, really. instead of scraping along the floor feeling like i'm gonna go sliding right off the track, these guys feel smooth and very control-able. as you might suspect, i loved practice tonight. next step is to buy outdoor wheels for myself and then i will just never take my skates off again. for reals, derby is the best thing to happen to me in a really long time. so extremely happy that i decided to do it.

feeling sunny and positive about summer as a whole. should be worky and productive while also involving shenanigans, cocktails, and lounging. another summer instituted life decision that i've decided to pursue is:

baking day!

i am an unconfident baker, my friends. so to change this sad fact, i will be baking something new, one day a week. perhaps from this book for the healthiness avoidance of refined bleached up flour nonsense. probs mostly i'll just be baking extraordinarily unhealthy treats from one wouldn't want to be *too* healthy. also hoping to do some entertaining this summer and/or bring baked treats to other get togethers. started off by making coconut cupcakes last saturday for ufc watching at cc's apartment. turned out pretty damn good, if i may brag a bit. cream cheese frosting, yo. so i've got high hopes for tarts, cakes, crepes, and breads.

now to read a bit of nylon before watching a movie and eating some treats with the bf. because it's suuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrr and i can do whatever i waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant. yup yup!

Monday, May 3, 2010

she's 34, has plans

sometimes, sadly perhaps, it takes a real dose of physical misery for the total beauty of normal existence to shine through. (which is why hangovers have a weird aura of the sublime for me. but that's another kind of post.) with that thought in mind, i'm not embarrassed to say that a night of puking and a day of curled-up-fetal-position ushered in a real sense of joy, clarity, and direction on april 30. really, chugging a bunch of water and eating a full meal after feeling like you never want to eat again is a maje reminder of the i am alive and i feel good! variety. the divine IS the everyday, people. and, no, i didn't finally get into that birthday champagne. i'm just a girl who's no longer too dizzy to stand up for the duration of a shower. god damn, nothing feels better than a shower sometimes. to my point, though.

definitive life plans, for which i am excited:

1. spend one hour every saturday reading philosophy, about ethics and morality especially.

(one of the only good things organized religion has got going for it is the scheduled time for philosophical reflection and study. just because i'm an atheist doesn't mean i can be ethically sloppy.)

2. get an mfa.

(eventually, or not at all if i can kick start writing creatively on my own. i don't think there's much to be gained from the degree itself, but as someone who needs deadlines and guidelines to get shit done, i am certain that taking classes will help me achieve my more creative goals. read: i have wanted to write fiction since i was a little girl and yet i'm too scared to do it. time for desperate measures.)

those are the top two. more later.

and to say goodnight, something beautiful:

He saw man as strong, proud, clean, wise and fearless. He saw man as a heroic being. And he built a temple to that. A temple is a place where man is to experience exaltation. He thought that exaltation comes from the consciousness of being guiltless, of seeing the truth and achieving it, of living up to one’s highest possibility, of knowing no shame and having no cause for shame, of being able to stand naked in full sunlight. He thought that exaltation means joy and that joy is man’s birthright. He thought that a place built as a setting for man is a sacred place.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

worst birthday ever?

perhaps. nobody wants food poisoning the night before their birthday. so no cake or champagne for me. no leisurely shopping or baking or light napping. just vomiting horrendous amounts and shitting rivers from about midnight until 8am. about once an hour, i guess. i counted seven trips to the bathroom. sorry for the too much info, but those were seven painful trips to the loo. so i feel compelled to share.

anyway, that meant my birthday proper was spent curled up in a ball sipping pedialyte and nibbling the corners off saltines. i started to feel better around midnight, and my sweet sweet boyfriend took really good care of me by making a special grocery trip replete with several flavors of fruity jello, pleasantly bland soup, and a pink plastic princess tiara and matching earrings. he even made me a pedialyte, gatorade, and water mocktail in a wine glass. much appreciated. for reals, i get super sensitive when i'm sick. i don't complain, but i get really quiet and am prone to tears. i totally teared up when i saw that he got me multiple jello flavors.

but i'm MUCH better now. opened lovely presents from the parents, looking forward to a dinner out with sweet boyfriend, and i've lost five pounds. (which will, undoubtedly, come back when i can eat more than soup and english muffins.) gonna do a little shopping with bday gift cards this week and i also CANNOT WAIT for the semester to meet its close. it's time for summer with all its humid glory and finished (and hopefully defended) dissertation.

the last couple days of mandatory bed rest have gotten me all riled up to get back to life with new vigor. i've got plans (some birthday resolutions to share on the morrow), and i'm a girl who likes her plans. now it's just five more papers to grade, some finals to give, and it's gonna get all free bird up in this bitch.

if free bird had an unfinished monster dissertation hanging off one little bird foot, dragging it down to the realm of the impossibly unfree, that is.

to making the most of it. happy 34th year to myself.