Tuesday, March 18, 2008

some serious concentration issues

is what i've got. i am a squirmy five year old every time i sit down to write this damn prospectus. i'm super excited abt the project, it's just that the prospectus itself is so damn boring! in this chapter, i'm going to blah blah blah. then i will move to blah blah blahing. i'd rather just write what i want to write rather than writing abt what i want to write. and here i am writing abt writing abt writing...

so, bleh.

the other night in a maje nyquil haze i couldn't sleep for some reason and decided to pick up on the road at 3:30am. and i totally realized i have been living my life ALL WRONG! i walk around every day like my life is such a burden and i'm all no-fun-havin when i could be digging some real gone shit and, like, being happy. for instance, this line really spoke to me:

"the point being that we know what IT is and we know TIME and we know that everything is really FINE"

if only i could recapture that feeling right now. i mean it was clear to me at 4 after dropping the quil but it's totally inaccessible to me now. it's back to burdensville and this god damned prospectus is at the top of my burden list.

at least i have sopranos for brain fireworks. tho i'm beginning to suspect that 4 eps a day of the sopranos is starting to make me a bit off-kilter. esp when i feel like i'm starting to channel paulie.

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